When I was trying to decide what color to paint my nails today, I first pulled out Clinique Really Rio and after I applied it, the pictures ended up looking like a big pile of turds wrapped in burnt hair. I think that color looks amazing in the bottle, but it looks horrid on my skin tone. Maybe it was just one of those days when nothing seems to photograph correctly so I ended up removing it and looked for another polish. Well, I decided to go with an untried green: Cacee BFF Nail Lacquer Isabelle. Let me tell you a little bit about why I chose this color today specifically. I remembered discussing the significance of the color green with my American Literature professor (yes, the previously mentioned professor that I wanted to brain bone when I was 17). We were talking about the significance of the green light of at the end of the dock at Daisy’s house and how longingly Gatsby admired it and reached for it–instilling his hope and idealism into that vapid and flighty woman who did not deserve to be on the pedestal he had placed her on. Green is the color of hope, balance and harmony and boy am I in need of some of that in my life right now.
Cacee BFF Nail Lacquer Isabelle is a neonish green polish that dries to a satiny finish. Upon first application, the polish seemed incredibly thin which gave me flashbacks from using Essie Shake Your $$ Maker. I think that Isabelle is a tad less vibrant but it’s pretty darn close, and it covers in three coats! You can still see some slight VNL, but I can live with that. I was just thinking to myself: Your life may suck donkey balls right now, but at least you have fabulous nails. I don’t know if that was meant to be a consolation or if it was just meant to make me laugh uncontrollably. Maybe that will be my lonely shriveled up piece of corn! (If you don’t know what I’m talking about, read this. You’re welcome.)
I tried to do some stamping over this, but I was having such a turdy (yes, that’s my word!) time picking up the image that I just ended up giving up. I’ve been such a quitter today. I just wish I was able to quit the job that is the bane of my existence currently. I had a really crappy day at work today to the point that it took even fiber in my being not to burst into tears towards the end of the day. I told myself that if I made it through the day without going postal, I could treat myself by going to my nail places and loading up on some new polish. I was especially looking forward to getting the new Essie Summer Collection! I went to three of my main nail places and they told me that they still hadn’t received their shipments so that was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I started sobbing in my car because I did get the new Essies. Ok, so it wasn’t really about the Essies but more about how disappointed I was with the fact that the one thing that could have potentially cheered me up momentarily wasn’t available. It was both pathetic and kind of hilarious…especially since I’m such an ugly crier a la Dawson. (Maria–you get this!)
Anyway, it always makes me feel better to focus on doing my nails because it forces me not to be such a downer, and I stop focusing on everything that’s bothering me. I also want to thank the amazing group of ladies on Siobahn’s email from earlier today. We may have never met (yet!), but you are all amazing. Thank you for all the support and crazy laughs even if we are all going to hell in a hand basket. I’m really glad that I don’t have to work tomorrow because I seriously need a mental health day–STAT! Thanks for reading despite my total downer posts lately. I hope this is just a little slump that I’m going through since this time of year brings around memories of dark times. Despite this, I really am eons ahead of where I was two years ago so this give me hope that not everything is a big pile of shit. (Have you noticed how scatalogical my vocabulary is?)
