Today has been a totally weird day. I know I said I wouldn’t be talking about work on my blog but I just have to say this: I hate it. HATE IT. You know when you hate going to work so much that you have nightmares about it? That’s me right now. Oh well. Hopefully it’s just a temporary feeling and I’ll grow more comfortable, but it’s looking pretty darn bleak right now. Buuuuuutttt….it sure is nice to have a paycheck. I was feeling so blah after work today that I decided to stop by Weinerschnitzel and reward myself with a chili cheese dog. I know, I know!!!!!! When I was getting out of my car, a homeless man was sitting on the other end of the parking lot and he yelled at me asking me if I could buy him a hamburger. I told him that I would see if I had enough money so I ended up buying him a burger and fries. I don’t know about you, but I always make an effort to help someone out. I am the person who always gives a buck or two to people standing outside with signs at the freeway off ramps. You’re probably snickering and calling me dumb since a lot of people seem to think that they are probably just using that money for drugs or alcohol. Honestly, I don’t care. I mean, if I give someone money, I hope that they are spending it on real necessities but if they are not, that is not going to be my excuse to never lend a helping hand. The other day I left for work kind of early because I wanted to stop at Starbucks. I saw a man with a sign asking for money because he was ill and hungry. I asked myself if I really needed that $5 Venti so I gave him the $5 instead. Ultimately, it’s a very small gesture and I just wish that we would all take some time to help others because I think we would live in such a better place if we did. I also had a super long chat with my mom today and told her that I wasn’t taking my depression meds anymore and that I haven’t been taking them for over 6 months. Of course she was kind of upset, but she was happy that I’ve been feeling good and haven’t had any type of relapse despite some of the stressful situations that have popped up lately. She also told me that she has kidney AND gall stones!!! WTF?! The worst part is that she is refusing to get surgery. I get so mad at her sometimes because she always thinks that she can get rid of stuff with crazy home remedies. I had gall stones about 6 years ago and I nearly died. No joke. I ended up in the hospital for close to a week because my HMO didn’t approve immediate surgery and the stones escaped and blocked my bile duct or some weird thing like that. If you’ve never had a gall stone attack, consider yourself lucky because it hurts like a mofo. Blargh…I’m so yappy today. Anyway, I should move on to what I wanted to show you tonight: Jindie Nails Burrrberry.
I know you’re probably seen a million and a half swatches of this nail polish, but it’s just freaking fantastic. I had a tiny bit of trouble applying this mainly because of the bottle shape and the tiny brush. I ended up adding some thinner and storing the bottle upside down for a little while. Once I did that, I felt that I was able to get much more even glitter distribution. We have been seeing a lot of polishes with this awesome milky base, and I seriously cannot get enough! I was super lucky to snatch this bottle up during Jen’s last etsy restock along with Strawberry Cupcake.
So what do you think about this polish? Have you jumped on the indie train yet? I think I am doing pretty well so far this year with featuring more indie polishes and brands so I’m pretty proud of myself. If you’re interested in purchasing some Jindie Nails pretties, make sure that you like Jen’s facebook page here so you can get all her restock notices and announcements. Thanks for stopping by today, and I will talk to you soon!
So sorry to hear that the job you waited for and tried to hard to get is giving you grief and stress. I’d like to say it will get better, but I really don’t know your situation and truthfully it’s probably a sign that this isn’t the right fit for you. I’d be seeking something else pronto! (((((HUGS))))) I love your attitude about helping others, and always lending a helping hand. What a sweetie you are! You can yap on your blog about anything you want, it’s YOUR blog. Plus you have cyberfriends out here who care.
I love that polish, but I just can’t bring myself to buy Indie yet, I prefer to buy in person and see the product up close and personal first and hold the bottle in my hands and all. I am a old fashioned physical brick and mortar store shopper and internet shopping does not give me the same pleasure or interactions with my favorite cosmetics sales people, so no Indies for me. They better make it to the Ulta or Sally’s Beauty counters if they want to get my money.
You know, I’m just a big old whiner. lol I think that it’s probably just that I’m having a hard time getting back into a work mindset. I do enjoy interacting with people all day…it’s just there are some things I definitely don’t like but no job is perfect. I have to give it a fair shot but sometimes it’s just hard when you have a particularly stressful day.
I felt exactly the same way as you about indie polishes for the longest time and then I finally just caved. Plus, one of the things that a lot of people requested was more indie swatches so I’m happy to oblige. 🙂 I wish I had really awesome sales people to tempt me, but sadly, every time I go to Ulta or Sally, they never know what I’m talking about. 🙁 One of my independent beauty supply stores has some pretty awesome and knowledgeable owners (both men) and they always talk my ear off when I ask them about brands and stuff.
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i think it is normal that you feel that way!! it is difficult to get back to a working life.. i should know! I used to work since i was 18.. then I met my husband, got married and moved to italy for 1.5 years. I didn’t work while I was there (i guess I had the perfect life right) and when we moved back to Panama, I had to work again..
the first months were stressing.. because I also had to finish some stuff from college I had pending, so I had a sucky job being a recepcionist and a marketing assistant at the same time, finishing the last semester of college in the nights and having a close minded husband that didn’t help me with the chores at home. i was going nuts..
but then, everything just went OK, i woke up one day and I was happy.. i guess i just got used to be back in that kind of life..
i guess you need to give yourself more time to get used to be back in the 9-to-5 life again 🙂
regarding your mom, i think you should talk her into getting the surgery.. moms never listen, i always have a hard time arguing with my mother about her health.. sometimes i make the doctor appointments for her and trick her into going to the doctor. LOL
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That sounds hard too! I just want to feel comfortable at work and I realize that it will take time. I’m just impatient, I guess.
OMG…my mom. This is what she told me: “Un señor me dijo que me podia deshacer las piedras con aceite de olivo y maguey.” If she could have seen my face at that point…ahhhhh! I almost yelled at her because this is serious stuff and she can’t just think some curandero de la calle is going to heal everything. I mean, I think that they can help with certain things and sometimes it’s all about how much the patient believes in the cure because the mind can really do amazing things. I just don’t want her to rely on that stuff!!!
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I hope everything get better soon! It’s so great you’re off your meds, though. It was such a relief when I stopped taking mine. I felt so much better. It’s like you have more control of yourself or something.
And parents are so difficult! My dad needs a surgery in his arm and he won’t stop missing his doctor appointments! *sigh*
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Thank you! I hope so too. I totally agree that it’s such a relief to be off my meds now and that I feel really good without them. I’m not afraid to start taking them again IF I ever need them again, but so far I am doing great. I hope you’re doing well without them to. I think all of our parents are the same!!! Why can’t they take care of themselves? They act like babies sometimes. 🙂
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I have nightmares all night, when I’m able to sleep. I dwell on all the crap I put up with, I do the same thing on my days off. I work with beyotches, mean girls & adult bullies. It’s really interesting when one of them is the manager! My anxiety starts when I think about work & intensifies as I’m on my way there. I was out of work for a long time before this job, so I’ve stayed there for years. I’ve trapped myself with the fear of leaving. Most people think my job is fun & glamorous, if they only knew! I’m grateful for my job, but shouldn’t have to be abused, and on meds to get thru the day! I hope it gets better for you at your job, or have the courage to get out & make it better.
I am so sorry that you’re going through that. 🙁 I’ve never had a situation like that but I can just imagine how stressful and anxiety-inducing it must be. I don’t understand why people insist on acting like assholes in the workplace or think that they can take advantage of others and make their lives miserable. The only think I can think of is that those people are so miserable in their own lives that they have to find a way to spread their hate. In any case, I hope that things get better for you–we all deserve to be comfortable at work! My current job doesn’t have issues like that (thank God), but there are other little things that I’m not happy with. I still think I’m lucky to have found this and hopefully I’ll be able to work through the rough spots.
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You are so nice!! I never give money to people on the freeways and stuff. Also when someone hollers at me from across a parking lot or approaches me when I’m getting into my car and I feel like punching them instead of giving them my change. Also, I don’t carry cash. But you are way nicer than me. People are probably hating me now cuz of what I just said. Sorry about that. I guess I’m in a weird mood too. I like helping people and I give stuff away and have volunteered although I don’t currently, there’s just something about handing over money that makes me uncomfortable. Well enough about what a crappy person I am… this polish is pretty! It’s one of my favorites of hers and I remember when I first saw it I was like “ahhhh!!!!” (angels singing) cuz I thought it was so pretty. Those stubby little bottles are cute but I can see how they might be a little difficult.
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lol…no, I don’t think you’re a bad person! Sometimes I think I’m a sucker, but I seriously think that any one can one day find themselves in dire straits and I really hope that if I was ever in a situation like that, that I would find kind people willing to lend me a hand. I just hope they actually use the money for something good
Oh my gosh, I do love this one too. I know everyone has been all over it for a long time, but it’s new to me! I bought two more minis today at her restock so I can’t wait to get em. There is one polish that she hasn’t released yet that is called Princess Breath and it is to die for…google it. You’ll thank me later.
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I also prefer giving them food to money but there’s been times when they’ve been given food and then they throw it in the trash, which upsets me because it’s FOOD.
And I agree, if they don’t use the money, that’s no excuse on our part to not be kind and giving!
That happened to me one time. I bought someone some food when he was standing on the street with a sign and then I went into the store. On my way back out, I saw the food in the trash. It really upset me. 🙁
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Oh no 🙁 I hope you disliking your job is just a transition type of phase. I know what that’s like…I’ve gotten to that point with just about every job I’ve had and it’s a horrible feeling. I’m sure once you’re done with your training it’ll feel a lot better.
I don’t think I’ve ever given money to homeless (that I can recall)…mostly because most of my working life I barely had enough $ to get myself a cheeseburger so giving my food money away wasn’t really an option. Now I honestly don’t see homeless or beggars around my area anymore…it’s kinda weird. I always feel bad when I think that I haven’t just done something as simple as buying someone a meal. I’ve never been in the situation to, plus if I don’t feel safe (cause you never know) I’d rather just keep to myself. Now my train of thought is wandering off….
I hope your mom is going to be ok! I’ve never had either kidney or gal stones *knock on wood* I know both are incredibly painful so I hope she gets it taken care of asap.
Now the polish… (you covered a lot of topics here)….I really like this one. I’m a fan of creamy glitter polishes but I’m trying to limit myself on how many I have cause they’re pretty much everywhere now (indie and main stream).
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I also hope that is the case. I mean, you know what it’s like to be in my shoes so I think any job is better than where I was…I just have to keep working at it and make it a good place for myself.
Sometimes I do think I’m a sucker because even when I was freaking out about finances, I still gave some lady $10 because she said she needed rent money. LOL I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I think that growing up, I always watched way too many world vision infomercials with starving kids so in my head I’m always trying to give money away even when I shouldn’t. I gave a friend $500 knowing he would never be able to pay me back…ok, maybe that was a little stupid but whatever. That was a few years ago and I would probably do it again so I guess I didn’t learn my lesson. I know I can’t save everyone which is really depressing….grrr. Why must I be such a spaz?
I don’t have many polishes with this creamy type of base. However, I just saw that Sephora has those new Illamasquas….WHYYYYYYYYYY? I also noticed that they hiked up the prices to $16 for those flecked pastels. Damn them. I will probably still get one. Or two. Or all. :/
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The Jindie polish looks really great 🙂 I haven’t tried this particular brand yet but I have bought a couple of other indie polishes both from etsy and from Llarowe. I really like the polishes with a milky base (one great example is “Belle” by The Hungry Asian). Revlon has a couple of great ones (“Popular”, “Girly” and “Whimsical”) if you want to buy more mainstream brands. They are all very sheer though so I usually start by painting a couple of layers of a creme polish that matches the colour of the base and then use the glitter polish on top. A great match for “Girly” is OPI Panda-monium Pink and for “Belle” I used Color Club Who Are You Wearing.
Work: I hope you are feeling better about it, and if not, I hope you are gearing up to continue looking.
Money: I usually don’t give money to people. I don’t have much money (especially now), and I am for some reason often mistrustful. I have a friend who is really devoted to helping people out like you have, and I don’t fault her for it…I think it’s whatever you feel comfortable with.
Meds: Ugh, I’ve been off mine for about a year, but I’ve started struggling with anxiety again for the past month or so. Some days are horrible, some days are fine. I am hesitant to go to the dr. because 1. I have crappy insurance and will end up paying and 2. he’ll just suggest I go back on it. I’m not totally against it, but am just not sure yet. What I really want to do is go in and say I’m being uber-hypochondriatic (which is what happens with my anxiety, I always think something’s wrong with me) and see if he can address my concerns and see if I feel better, THEN, if not, go back on it, but I feel like that is a kind of crazy tactic to try and explain. 🙁
Mom – Ooo boy, I went through this with my mom. There was a test she was being super-petulant about and I absolutely blew up in her face, throwing papers, storming out of the house, and driving around aimlessly. I don’t think I’d ever been that mad – it scared me (she ultimately did the test). I think she didn’t want to admit that something was wrong. I hope she listens to you soon.
The polish – I like it! I actualy haven’t seen any swatches of this. I am doing fairly well with my Indie purchases, but also don’t want *too* many milky glitters, ya know?